Day one...

Today started so well. I finally found the courage to send a poem I've written into a magazine competition....I have no doubt that it won't win, I know that something just isn't quite right with it and its just not good enough. So why did I post it in you might be asking? Well it had reached the point where if I didn't send it I would keep 'tweaking' it for the rest of my life....not exactly what I had in mind when I pictured being a published writer as a kid!! Besides, everyone knows that you need to get rejected before you get published, so I thought losing a competition would be good practice and get me a step closer to actually getting some 'proper' writing done. And it worked as well. As soon as the poem was in the post I was the happiest I have been in a long time and the ideas started buzzing around my head. That euphoria is the reason I started this blog today, I want to remember how good actually sending off a piece of my own writing feels, so that when I am being rejected or have writers block, I can look back at this and remember just how good I felt this morning.


Of course, then I had to start my real job and that quickly drained all the happiness out of me. Nothing like being spoken to like crap all day every day to dampen your spirits! Apparently, working as a Doctor's Receptionist means that the public are entitled to speak to me however they like and the second I sound annoyed by this or am unable to do exactly what they want, when they want, I am an evil witch who needs to be taken down and complained about......and its only Tuesday! Still got three more days to get through before the weekend! I know that its just a job and the way the world is at the moment I should just be pleased to be getting paid....but sometimes it takes all my self control to pick up the phone and take the next call rather than walk out the door and never look back.


So this year I've decided to make some changes. Instead of just sitting sighing about how hard my job can be and day dreaming about being a writer, I am going to do it. My aim is to try and do a bit of writing every single day, even if its rubbish. I am going to remind myself that writing rubbish is better than writing nothing - I can edit and re-draft rubbish, I can't edit a blank page. I want to try and enter short story competitions, poetry competitions, anything to get me writing and try to build up my confidence. Hopefully in the process I'll have my 'Harry Potter Moment' and can start working on the novel that I dream of getting published. In 2011 I wrote a few poems, one of which I entered into a competition today. During 2012 I hope to build on this, keeping track of my progress on this blog, as well as blogging about anything else that pops into my head!